Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists up to several hours.
About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with sudden, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.
Still, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.
It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.
Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.
But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidance need revising to reflect a